decisions.. decisions....

hmm ok got back results.. ABB... for math phy chem. general paper B4... its really good for me i guess.. cos i've never tasted any grades better than a d before... in other words i've never got A,B,C in my entire 2 years in JC laa.. sighh well guess my hard work eventually paid off.. all the mugging sessions in sch library.. sch reading room... class bench... jurong east library.. those stacks n stacks of damned notes...TYS after TYS.... MCQ after MCQ.... i guess mrs lee really hepled alot too.. she's been around like... omnipresent. zai not? haha.. yea she pushed me so hard la.. gave me countless papers to do blabla.... waa really thanks to her mann.. and physics.. my tuition was pretty useful i guess.. and my tuition-mates as well.. they're a real helpful bunch.. tho it was only a short period.. im glad we were able to help each other along.. for math.. i guess i havta thank MYSELF and my private tutor. haha cos i chionged many papers and he oso helped me alot.. tutition was damn last minute la.. like after prelims?? hahaha....

yea unlike samuel (btw he oso have a similiar entry in his blog) .. i did not pia until after prelims den i started to pee my pants..which was the greatest mistake i made in the 2 years.. i really shld have put in a TEENY WEENY bit more consistent effort... so the final panicking and heart-pumping moments would not surface.. well its ok.. lesson learnt. NODS.

anw went out with class after tt.. ate pepper lunch den hanged around.. sat and talked at cine.. den after tt got qt siann so we decided to make a move. went to meet dear.. she was having dinner with her class too. YUKI YAKIIIII.... tt lucky girl. haha.. yup den we went balcony for a few drinks.. 3 only la actually.. not intending to party or celebrate laa.. but jus itching for a drink or two lorr.. den sat there talk.. listened music.. den left the place lorr.. quite happy. cos managed to spend time with the class.. and spend time w dear too.. normally its one way or the other.. heh. im gladd things worked out so nicely.. BEAMS....

den came home and talked to uncle and my older cuz..
NOW IM SO CONFUSED ON WAD I WANA STUDY!!!!

haha.. ok at 1st i was like sooo looking forward to taking the tourism and hospitality course at NTU business school. and then uncle told me abt the shift thingy.. which im not sure if im prepared to spend my life working shift hours.. no time for family life! and my cuz explains that tourism industry is damn small.. contributing only like 10% to singapore's GDP.. comapred to thailand or maldive.. its really hard to do... and the integrated resort thing oso not sure if its gg to be success or failure..

ok tt totally jus shattered my dreams.

hahhaa no nooo im not blaming them.. im thankful to them for pointing these out to me.. leaves me thinking at least.. rather then i so gUng-ho go chiong without thinking carefully.. hmm den there's more stuff regarding the business and accountancy degree.. but heyy im too tired to type anymore.. its all in here *taps my brain*... so umm i duno.. if yu all are oso interested in these stuff mebe can have a talk with me? i oso need alot of opinions right now... cos well i guess no matter how much we read in the brochures or websites blablabla... its useless.. cos they'll all make themselves sound the best? i tink wad i need is talking to guo lai ren.. i.e. experienced pple.. and gather more opinions b4 i decide on my future.... its my future come on! i need to tink thoroughly man.. its gona feed my family! =)

and anyway im happy for dear.. cos its like she's set her mind on accountancy.. so yupp tts good.. but im still struggling.. heh. guess i'll take a look at smu at their open house... but 1st i've to find tt brochure which i chucked aside last time.. tinking i'll surely not go there.. hahah..

sigh. all our lives we study wads been offered to us.
spoon-fed.
now when there're dozens of possiblities are open to us..
we suddenly feel so confused and spoilt for choice.
wad an irOny ayeee?